30 Days Challenge - Day 13

Day 13- A letter to someone who has hurt you recently.

This is one of those clichéd moments, isn't it? It's not you, it's me, kinda thing. In a way I really don't have a right to be hurt by you like this, I'm not supposed to be hurt by it, am I? I even said it myself. It's alright, that makes sense, it would be selfish of me to think otherwise. No problem.

Well that was the plan...

Except those emotions are difficult things to control, aren't they? Because I can't escape the feeling that I've been swept aside. That's what bugs me the most. We grew pretty close quite quickly, despite the distance and relative age gap. We were promising the world, everything seemed in our immediate grasp. Live life, right? Everything is up for grabs, find yourself, and see what happens.

I'm well aware it was probably a little over-ambitious of me to think these things, but I wasn't the only one. Well, at least you said you thought the same way. Then again, I've always found it difficult at the best of times to read people. Maybe I took you all too literally on what you said.

What hurts, and it does hurt, no matter how I put it to one side, is how easily I appear to have been swept under the rug, and history has been re-written. Am I the only one that actually remembers our conversations, and what we said we'd do and what we planned to do?

Oh yes, I forgot: he takes priority.

That was always the line. Every time. He takes so much priority that I go from a good companion to bit part to nigh-on nothing? Let me make one thing clear - my ire does not lay with him. It would be truly selfish and spoilt of me to be angry with him, he has done nothing wrong. He happens to be in a better place at a better time. Fine.

What I just don't understand is how easily I have become marginalised. In such dismissive fashion, as well. No say in the matter. Insignificent. Doesn't matter.

I doubt that was your intention, as I had you down as a much better person than that, but it still hurts me that it's panned out like this.

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Apologies if thats a bit too raw and honest - I've needed to say that for a little while now.